I'm working through some really tough questions right now.
Is Hemie the right horse for me? Am I the right rider for him?
Is Laurie the best trainer for him, or for me?
Are there things I can do - solutions I haven't tried yet?
What is the best situation for him to have a happy, productive, safe, enjoyable life?
What is the best situation for me to have a happy, productive, safe, enjoyable horseriding experience?
With the ongoing recovery from my injuries, the car wreck situation (and now, car shopping situation), and some imminent travel plans, I'm trying not to pressure myself into any hasty decisions. But I also hate these big questions hanging over my head. I like conclusions, I like plans, I like feeling in control.
In the meantime, I've been getting some low-key saddle time in. Barn-mates have generously offered me rides on safe older horses, which has been very nice. I did get on Hemie for just a few minutes the other day, just to walk and a little bit of trotting after he'd gotten a great ride from Laurie.
Again, thank you so much to everyone. I really, really appreciate the support of the blogosphere. I consider you special blog friends, and I truly am grateful for the comments and input. All of it.